Unpredictable and Life should be synonyms

Dear reader,

Today, I'd like to give us something to ponder on.

I began this year on a low note. Lost someone really close to me, and it was a life-changing event for me. I'll explain why.

You see, I'm big on having things planned out. I'm one of those people who has a 10-year plan, who likes to map out things, create to-do lists. Basically, I don't like life catching me unawares, so I always, always plan ahead. But just like that, my plans were distorted when I lost this person, and I moved from being the girl who sets new year goals to someone who was just trying to get by every day without having a mental breakdown.

Thankfully, I've healed to a large extent, but going through that phase taught me a lesson. Life is not predictable. I may have heard this many times, but that experience really did imprint it in my mind. We like to make plans and all, but what's the promise that we will be present in tomorrow? This is not to say I don't make plans anymore, but in all of it, I'm learning to not hold on too tightly to my plans in a way that may break me when they don't work out.

This was a tough lesson to learn because I like to be in full control of my life, but to begin with, how much is actually in my power?

Hembafan from MANI