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- I Thought I Was Hacked. It Was My Sister.
I Thought I Was Hacked. It Was My Sister.
I was in the middle of something important when my phone buzzed.
Debit alert. I assumed I was hacked. Who pays this huge sum for an Adobe subscription?
I felt the air leave my body. Not dramatically; just quietly, the way panic actually works. One second I was present; the next I was gone. Mentally checked out, heart doing the most, hands already moving.
Then another one came in.
This is March. The month my salary arrived and immediately left. Whatever I had left was supposed to last me the whole month, and my brain did the math instantly. It was not giving good news.
I called my bank. Nigerian bank. So you already know. I called again. And again. By the third time, I could not think straight, could not focus, and could not get back to what I was doing before. One notification and my whole mood, my whole day, shifted just like that.
Eventually, I called my sister just to rant, and she paused and said, "Oh... I think that might be me. I forgot to cancel a subscription on your card."
The audacity. The relief. The audacity again.
But what stayed with me was how fast it happened. How quickly one small thing can turn a regular day into a really hard one. That's genuinely how it works sometimes; you're fine, then you're not, and the gap between the two is just one phone buzz.
It doesn't mean you're falling apart. It means something caught you off guard, and your body reacted. That's human.
What helped me was just saying it out loud, even to myself. "I'm spiralling; this is temporary."
Then just breathing, slowly, until my body started to believe it. And eventually the situation resolved itself.
My sister owes me. And I came back.
Hard moments move. They don't always feel like they will, but they do.
And if today caught you off guard, that makes sense. You've been holding more than people know.
Stay a little longer with yourself. The weight will not always feel this heavy.
-Oluwademilade from MANI